What Causes Cancer?
Cancer is not only physically and emotionally painful, it is very expensive. You want to die. I’m not going to lecture you. But I wouldn’t do so selfishly, and cancer will destroy your family. Even after you are gone, they will be left with hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt to pay for your treatment- and you don’t even want treatment.
You say you have gotten help, and nothing works- but it only works if you want it to. I’d seriously consider why you want to die, or not live. Life isn’t easy, but nothing worthwhile ever is. I’d continue to get counseling and really truly figure out why you want to die. Stop living for yourself and start living for everyone else. If you aren’t going to be happy anyway, at least you could try to make the people in your life happy.
Direct suicide hurts too many people? You think a slow and painful death from cancer doesn’t hurt those who care for you and those you leave behind? Have you ever SEEN someone die of cancer? Have you any idea the pain that experience and the memory of it causes? To this day, 30 years later, the memory of my mother pleading for death in the final 30 or so hours of her life brings me to tears.
Cancer, in any case, would be a most inefficient way of doing away with yourself, even if there was a way you could deliberately develop it, which there is not.
Cancer is by no means guaranteed to cause death, and where it does that death can take months or years.
Trust me, a good clean quick death would be easier on everyone.
I think you have some romantic idea about death from cancer. Three days ago you were concerned about which ski goggles were cool. Grow up and stop insulting those who are dealing with the daily realities of this filthy disease
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